Sorry seems to be the hardest word

im sorry for all the wrongs i’ve done.
but its time again for me to change to another blog due to i cant let anyone read
if i continue to type here i must think b4 i type.
and people will start to comment abt it.
well i dont like it either.

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Its been so long since i update this blog again…
ohh well bz with work and baby everyday…
Only as for today i get to rest yeahhh.. Coz today and tomolo is my off day
Anyways maybe later im going jurong swimming pool to have some fun
hehehe yahh

A note from sister to mom

mama
no one can have a heart as pure as you…
always trying your best in everything you do
never complain much about what your kids do to you
mama, i am so grateful to have a mom like you

went through hardships all her life
didn’t get to go to school, cos no ones doing the chores
but still she lived her life with so much pride
mama, i can’t be you even if I have the choice

took care of us while dad sails away…s
trangers are not to befriend, her kids are always in the pen
cooks a complete meal for us everyday
mama, i can’t thank you enough till my life’s end

still puts a smile even when her kids are not pleasing her
keeps to heart evertime she feels hurt
she’d rather keep to herself with hurt and anger
mama, please forgive us kids, we didn’t mean to hurt

she feels that she’s not getting the attention
from the one that she always expects from
her love is never rationed
mama, if one did, will their commitment be conformed?

i know she’s sad cos i’m leaving
always chatting me up and cooking my favourite food
how i wish she knows how i’m feeling
mom, lets spend as much time as we could!

there is so much i wanna tell you
and one of it is not to bother what they did to you
hopefully GOD will guide them thru
and do remember that i will always be there for you….

mama…I LOVE YOU!

nana:i love you too mama
-teenie-

I really just felt like replying…
Yes we wanted to get married but not soo soon saving up first stop.. its the matter of im sick of having to go thru yet another and another relationship.. His the package of what my needs are.. He fullfill me enough.. and to my thinking yahh why not get married if we really cant be a part from eachother.. he dont controls me at all.. One thing about me most in a relationship is not to be alone..
And ever since im with farhan never have i felt the lonelyness in me..
We dont plan to settle down to have children when we gonna get married..just tied the knot cause we just can’t get enough without seeing eachother..
I’ve always wanted to travel around to seeing part of the world explore life not just to be stuck in singapore and kept going to the night life to party all the way before you get old…
Again i’ve always wanted to settle down with someone who i can share my life with and now i just dont want to missed the chance again if i had him…

yes i might be too young for married..but then im not like others who is eager to get married young but then no plans after married… i’ve always planned after married i never ever gonna rush things… relex enjoy life with hubby.. its doesn’t mean you get married ur stuck with that person.. and only with that person and cant enjoy life still…
i’ve changed alot..
missed the clubbing days but really cant make it a habit.. had that someone special and to your thinking he/she might be the one dont missed the chance…cause if not you’ll regret for life..

im not supposed to talk about him again but sorry still i want too..
i had this great guy once i’ve always put aside his attitude cause i was blinded by love once.. being patiance with him is not that easy but its a challenge..
Covering his backside within my family..wanting and trying to be there for him all the time but its hard coz he dont want too..
yes afew weeks back then he said i’ve always been in his heart but then if you always showed me that you dislike me being around! Ladies what you should do? Fuck off better right..
partly im dissapointed partly im angry i couldnt help it cause its too late why the fuck you letting me know all this?
I deleted off you ever since i said i wanted to broke off with you and i really did..
to a point of time i slowly started to throw whatever memories and pictures i had with you cause i felt soo angry..
I have farhan now im more then happy..i know partly deeply you cant get rid of me dont denied..
Well i have to be cruel and shelfish now.. cause i dont wanna care! My kind of person always wanting to think about others before i type in my blog but now i just dont care on what you have to feel

Dont try to advice others try to advice on yourself more..

And hello farihin how are you?
i heard some about you lately..
How life?
Do take care for ur dearest abg sedare yahh… i know you will..

Cheers*

Seeing happiness..

Just got home around 3.20am..
As usual i took the laptop to update certain things thats being going on.. well yahoo tomorrow im going back to work yahhh..
well today at start didnt when well my boncet had to go to work at 5am i over shot didnt get to wake him uo just now.. but his nenek did woke him up at 5 plus late again!
Men will always be late for work dont understand why they cant just simply get up right away…

before boncet called me… decided to open some picture fold on desktop found some of mummy’s happy moments while taking photo.. i just love seeing her smile and daddy’s too…

He came into my life without knowing who i really am. We were introduce by our closes friend who i dearly love her for giving me the love of my life.heheh
I was in sorrow but then he came to bring me joy ever.. I usually hear people might say well this is only the beginning.Yah! But my beginning is diffrent i tell you..Our relatioship actually didnt go well at start because i was still with someone i had before thinking theres still might be hope but then i guess my big hope was being most with my love now…He is something like everyday christmas morning..
My daddy used to tell us say “Don’t meet up everyday later you cant stand seeing eachother”
but really for once we never think of such things at all… We’ve been meeting up all most everyday and never to feel bored at all.. mostly what we would do it that no plans just sit down behide my void deck hut… i would sit down and he would lay down his head on my right leg..And we would talk alot i tell you about simply anything…and when he reach home never to fail to call me saying baby im home and we would still chat till late nights..

My daddy said to me yesterday cant get enough of him right untill to the exstand have to get home till 3am go get marry lahh he said…
im blushed but at the same time never wanna show it lahh scared that my boncet would react out of this and freak out yahhh…But no he like it hhahaha…
And yesterday night he yes! proposed to me… es he did!
Really i was like ”baby are you sure? you must be kidding me right? again and again i kept asking him was this for really is he sure what his thinking is right!

Im more then happy that im not dreaming haha!
Gosh* We have to start saving for real! My wish came true not that i wanna get married asap but then to save up together and get married.. well we’ve plan alittle i mean talking on the phone is never enough we gonna have more updates on eachother later hehehe…

love u hunny

Im sorry i was late.

Today is 4 of november.
I went to jurong swimming complex just now with my boncet and its was rainning badly there so we deicded to eat cheese fries at the carpark.. while eating i checked on my phone and theres was afew missed calls.. its was my 3rd sister.. gave her a call and hearing her sad voice, she said that my dearest didi boy which is my oldest cat past away…i break down and cried on the spot didnt know what to say to her..
i wanted to rush home but then the weather didnt allow me too..
so i had to wait, eager to get home at that point of time..soo after the rain stop i msg my sister asking if they had already buried him or not..but then she said had to wait for everybody to come then they gonna buried him at the nearby playground..
soo me and boncet made a pity stop too ah boy shop to buy his side mirror.. after that we rush home…got home to search for alen key but then mummy was asking,

mum:”where’s gap?”
me: downstairs at the front carpark..why?
mum: ask him to help at the back playground.

rush downstairs asking boncet to go to the back void deck.. haiz looking at everyone to my thinking they already put him in to the ground but i was lucky to get to see him for the last time..
i hold him into my arms crying badly i couldnt believe my one and only fav cat passed away..he was soo scold held into my arm with his sad small face..*sob*

Dear didi boy
i dedicate this to you my dear baby. you’ve been a big brother to me, you’ve been with me ever since the day i was born you were there beside me all along…he was a strong and independent cat all along..smart boy never make mama scold him know house to go to the toilet by himself..
such a manje boy.. i will love you always.sorry if i wasnt been there with you these few days..
sad seeing you not eating at all..

Abg andy bought a ”bad boy” t-shirt for him but sad he only get to wore it once but then its time for him to goo yahh.. thank allah that he took him away rather then he have to suffer more day by day could’nt walk and could’nt eat..

i will miss you and everytime i sit a the pondok i will visit you and put flowers around ur grave for sure..

 

 

An error becomes a mistake only when u refuse to correct it. 

Well, i really hope that things will be ok. I hope to continue our friendship in this short period.

We got a year more to have fun.Let’s put all the negative part behind and look forward for a better time. Every story has an end, and with that there’s a new beginning.

Skipping My Meds.

I’ve been skipping my meds lately..
thats bad n im worried cause its not like a normal sickness its chixy POK! LOL
But then it also became a bad habit cause again i’ve been coming home late at nights.
yeah mc for 2weeks cant expect me to stay home.. I just realise my iner throat also got chixy pok very painful.
I think i really need to bare with the noisy ness and just stay home for good..

ChixyPok

Bad luck i tell you.. Gosh* im having my chicken arrrgghhh.. very ugly lahh haha
i hate it lor. its like pimple everywhere…eeeewww
And its only been 3days..

Actually i did notice the spots around my backbody,soo yah i tot it was normal..
Den i started to cought and cought till to the extend i cought,,vomit at the same time..
2days ago worst i kept cought at work,till i cought blood… scary sia..
i cant continue working soo i took a rest and get to sleep till closing.. And sweating like a pig lor at the back kitchen haha…
Everyone was soo nice to me visit me at the back asking if im alright and soo on.. hehe
Farhan kept giving me a big hug n kisses me although im so smelly with the sweat haha.. so sweet of you baby..
After he finish work send me home…And end up he slept over my place to take care of me.. hehehe

And it very itchy tahan only lahh…
And my meds cost me $98 OKEY!